Saturday, January 23, 2010
my books from Freddie deBoer on Vimeo.
I once watched a movie called, I think, Supermasochist, and that's pretty much how I feel after video taping myself for a half hour and then watching it. I'm not a fan of my nose, or my hair, and I'm getting this turkey neck thing with my old age, and I have some annoying tics, too. But at some point you've gotta give yourself a fucking break, right?
I warn you: I use the word "fantastic" like 30 times in this half hour video. I had no idea while I was filming it. I assure you, I'm not one of those people who thinks everything is awesome, and I hope I don't use that word that often in real life. Sorry.
As I hint at in the video, this video had both a preamble and a, uh, postamble. I got rid of them both, for reasons of insecurity and poor lighting leading to insecurity. There was a long saw I was gonna go into in reference to Ulysses, and people who think that claiming to love reading is an affectation or "signaling" or whatever. But rather than going into an argument that will be wearying for you and for me, I'll just say this: this is what I am into. Some people are really into cars; some people are really into model airplanes; some people are really into smoking weed; some people are really into gadgets. This is my thing. I love it, and while I don't expect everyone else to love it (I am quite used to it being an uncommon devotion), I do expect everyone to let me love it without questioning my motives. And what I'd like to do here in this space is to just share why I love it, and maybe write something a little entertaining or moving to boot.
I intend to keep vlogging to a minimum, as I find it rather self-indulgent; but then again, this is a blog. Self-indulgence comes with the territory.